So, I haven’t blogged in a while. Like. It a good long while. And, I’m here to tell you all why.
I’ve been lazy.
Not just with blogging. I think of something to blog about everyday, or every other day at least.
I’ve just been lazy in general. I’ve been having a hard time mentally committing to things lately and it’s put me in a real funk.
My eating ? Has been vegetarian. Why ? Because I’ve been too lazy to plan my meals, find recipes, go grocery shopping, etc. So, I’ve been eating like crap. And in turn, I feel like crap.
Working out ? That’s a good joke.
With this transition into warm weather it means no more yoga pants and hoodies/cardigans/shape covering clothes. And that’s been tough. I’m still not at a place where I’m 100% happy with my body, so the thought of going out and buying shorts and capris (in a bigger size *dun dun DUNNNN*) has been off putting, to say the least.
But, I went. I went and I conquered. I bought shorts and capris and skirts and even a dress. I bought actual outfits, not just pieces of clothing that I would just throw on.
It was almost liberating; I’ve felt like such a slob because it’s been winter, so it’s been the same yogas and hoodies for the last 6 months. And anyone will tell you wearing the same thing over and over again gets depressing. So, having grown up outfits (THAT FIT) is so amazing.
I was so pissed about buying clothes (and I put it off forever–because I’m lazy) because I wasn’t the size** I wanted to be and I thought “if I’m buying a clothes that are ONE SIZE bigger than what I fit into before, I’ll be this weight forever”! Not how it works. Having clothes that fit, no matter the size, will make you feel so much better about yourself.
** when I say “size” I don’t mean a size 4, 6, 8, 10, 12, etc… I mean it like: I want to be happy with the way I look. If I like the way I look at a size 8, then so be it ! If I like how I look more at a size 10, cool beans. It’s not about the number. It’s about how I feel about myself when I look in the mirror and it’s about my health.
So, that was the clothes shopping debacle of upcoming summer 2016.
Nola has been crawling and standing and moving all over the damn house. It was easier to sit down and blog when I could just sit her down and she’d stay in one place. Oh, hindsight, why are you so 20/20 ? She’s 9 months on the 3rd and I’m already planning her one year birthday party ! I can and can’t believe she’ll be one so soon. It’s amazing.
What else ?
Schooling has yet to begin. That’s a whole different shit storm to discuss another time.
I will be back in full swing soon enough.